However, until then, I’d like to share this……………………………………….
I’m
twenty-eight years old. In my country, girls my age are well overdue for
marriage. The way people get worried (and pass their worry on to me) about MY
marital status makes me feel like running to someplace else for a minute. Not like
people in other places don’t get worried about being single for too long; but at
least over there, I won’t have family, friends AND [arrghhh] strangers bugging me about it all the time. Anyway, whenever
people ask me about the kind of man I’d like to get married to, my answer has
always gone around something like this: a
person who understands me completely – all my flaws and rights – and loves me
anyway; my friend who I can be myself with; and one who loves God more than he
loves me. Just very simple! Physical looks aren't much of a bother to
me; although, I will prefer a good looking guy who weighs half as much as I do
(two Plus sizes won’t be good for the
childrenJ). The kind of job he does isn’t so much of a
bother either. I just need a friend who understands me so completely, and loves
God way more than he loves me.
At
this point, it’s important to mention that finding that guy has been very difficult;
and that guy finding me has been almost impossible – well, at least, so I thought.
LOL.
Anyway,
on Tuesday last week, I was waiting, excruciatingly, in a public place, and to
while away time, I began looking at the many pictures on my phone AGAIN. I came across this portion of
Psalm 139 that I had ScreenGrabbed to my phone. As I read it, I realized that I
sought in man what I already had in God. Now, don’t get me wrong; I still
desire that God-filled man. I, however, grasped in that moment that my
God-filled husband will be my friend and love God, but will never be able to
understand me completely. That kind of understanding and love is found in God
alone. Even the Psalmist in the sixth verse of that passage exclaimed, “Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it
is high I cannot attain unto it.”
To
all my fellow single ladies and guys out there who, like me, are hoping for the
perfect man or woman, you already have Him in God. Like I once told my lonely
friend who thought she needed a man to complete her, you can never find
satisfaction in any man or woman if Christ does not satisfy you. Marriage is
the union between one COMPLETE man and one COMPLETE woman – that’s only when “the
two” can become “one” (Ephesians 5:31). Two half-baked individuals who get
hitched hoping they can complete or “compliment” each other will only and
certainly get disappointed.
Christ
completes me; and that’s why even if a relationship doesn’t work out between a
fella and I, I may be disappointed and somewhat heartbroken, but I don’t feel
like the earth has given way beneath my feet. I don’t lose heart and think life
isn’t the same without him in my world. It never has to be “this” particular
guy; but it always has to be one particular GOD, who has searched me and known
me; One who knows my sitting down and my uprising and knows my thoughts afar
off; He who discerns my going out and my lying down, and is acquainted with all
my ways; and even more amazing and romantic, He who knows my very words even
before I speak them – Psalm 139:1-4. Now, that satisfies me. That completes me!
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PS:
Dear Husband, whoever and wherever you may be, I’ll love you and appreciate
you, and I’m sure you’ll be so super amazing that I’ll need to thank God
everyday that He brought you my way, but you’ll never be able to replace my
First Love. I just do hope HE’s yours too.
